A work in progress

I have decided that stupid desk i have in my office just doesnt work, its suppose to be a corner desk but it doesnt fit in the corner so i have it under the window and there is not nearly enough working room so I am going to attempt to make a built in desk that runs the full length under the window. I have an idea how to do it, just need to make sure i get the measurements right. wish me luck. i will recruit my brother into helping since he is coming over from Blenhiem tomorrow so if i pull the little sister needs big brother card he will help lol…either that or he will sit and laugh at me one or the other lol. so watch this space lol

yip its monday again

monday morning, the sun is shining, its not yet 10.30 and i have just put Katie down for her morning nap…i’m running ahead of schedule this morning…well sort of…housework hasnt been done yet but i decided to treat myself to a hot cup of tea and a ciggie and some sunshine first. so i am sitting outside, having found a spot where i can actually see the screen of my laptop without the sun glaring on it and am enjoying the sun on my back while i think of something inspiring to write lol….yea well thats not going to happen.

so i was just making my bed and contemplating the last time i spent a full night in it….hasnt happened in over 9 month now but one day it might…or is that one night? i was also trying to remeber the last time i had someone in it….hmmmmm cant think that far back lol….the joys of being single….at least i dont get anyone hogging the blankets or snoring….actually i miss Chris snoring in my ear…its been 2 years since i heard that noise….where has the last 2 years gone? its been 2 weeks since the anniversary of his death which i handled better than i expected…in some ways it doesnt seem like 2 years and in others it seems like a lot longer…so much has happened and i am in an entirely different space now….not to mention an entirely different island. but i still miss him….i suppose i always will.

on a happier note…i am determine to put the past behind me so i am not going to dwell…..so this weekend i actually managed to get 3 layouts completed and a 4th started…how good am i? i have set myself a goal of getting Katies 2nd scrapbook finished before the end of the month….i have 11 layouts to go not counting the one i am working on now…its do able and i took some great photos of the kids in the playground yesterday…the first photos i have of all 3 of them since easter. but why does Steve always have his eyes closed or a weird look on his face when i take photos of him? because hes 14 i geuss…i dont mind 14…its not a bad age but 17…yukkkk….Jodi is going through the “i know everything and you cant tell me what to do” stage….gawd help me…its easier just to keep my mouth shut and let him fall on his own butt…as i have said to myself right through all these stages of the boys lives…”this too will pass” and he will come out the other end of it and be my sweet Jodi again….the sooner the better but its not going to happen over night….a few weeks ago he told me he was engaged to his long time on again off again girlfriend from Naki, and wondered why i didnt take him seriously! strange that…shes there….hes here and hes 17….need i say more? i love char to bits…shes like the teenage daughter i never wanted but those 2 together…..well typical teenage romance really….one mintue their madly in love the next they cant stand each other…so no i am not taking the whole engagement thing seriously at all. oh and now Steve’s got a girlfriend….what did i do to deserve two such irrestible sons? hahaha….girls love them….either i have done something right or something dreadfully wrong when i raised them…..at least they respect the girls and dont treat them like dirt like most boys their age. so i must have done something right there.

anyway thats nearly 15 mintues of solid typing…time to drink my tea…read my emails and smoke my ciggie before i go play the domestic goddess lol…a mothers life…endless cleaning, washing and running around….when Katie wakes i have to go do the shopping AGAIN…oh man i grocery stores! wish me luck!

september layout comp

how good am i? i have done my layout for the september comp at scrapbook essentials already. take a look http://gallery.scrapbookessentials.co.nz/displayimage.php?album=45&pos=0 Katies first photos. I look at those photos and it seems like yesterday she was born, not almost 9 months ago, shes changed so much since then and getting more beautiful everyday.

what can i say, she is my angel and makes life so wonderful even when shes screaming blue murder. i am trying the controlled crying menthod on her tonight, she keeps waking up half an hour after she goes down and i need to break the chain now before it becomes a habit but i hate letting her cry, it seems so unfair even though i know its for her own good it still breaks my heart to listen to her. i just have to be tough.

think i might go scrapbook.

where did it go???

did anyone see where the weekend went? here it is Monday again and i havent had a weekend yet…well maybe it i did but it disappeared pretty quick. on the upside i managed to get some gardening done…now anyone that knows me knows i dont do gardens but something in the sunshine and the new house brought it out in me…i had to trim the lavender bush outside my bedroom window before i couldnt open my window at all…and from there i just went a little insane…now several bushes are trimmed, roses are cut back, possibly for the first time since they were planted and weeds are pulled…omg how scary is that???? and the house is spotless, the washing is up to date…not folded but hey we cant ask to much can we? and now i am looking around thinking wth am i gonna do today? Katie is almost due for a sleep after desimating her morning toast, shes sitting in her highchair next to me trying with all her wee mite to get her vegimite covered fingers on the laptop..thats my girl…a mini geek in training…she loves the laptop, my cellphone and her brothers xbox…anything that she can push buttons and makes a noise…lol…wonder where i can get her a toy laptop from??? hmmm now theres a thought. so my first week home alone wasnt nearly as bad as i thought it would be…except Katie decided to give up sleeping for a couple of nights…joy joy joy….she gave up sleeping in favour of screaming and keeping me awake til all hours…nice..NOT!..but after a wee talk to her plunket nurse and some very tough love shes back on track now TG! i couldnt have taken much more of sleepless nights and the screaming…this is one time when being on your own is really hard but the boys have been great and even my big brother offered to take her for an afternoon on saturday….unfortunately he was late picking her up and she fell asleep on my knee so i put her to bed and told him not to worry about it lol…i think he was relieved lol….he loves his neice but doesnt do babies…his have grown up and hes looking forward to grandkids eventually. talking about grandkids….i was talking to my other brother (i have 3) the other night and we decided since he is now a grandad and his grandbaby will be calling him Koko and thats what all dads grandkids call him that Tayliyah will have to call dad koko-nui which basiclly translates as big grandad lol….how cute is that? now she has koko (grandfather) and koko-nui (big grandfather) which will save a lot of confusion since Katie is only 8 months older than my wee grand niece and she will call Dad Koko when she can talk (if shes anything like her cousins and brothers it will gorgor for the first few years lol) well best go…Katie needs sleep and is bored now lol…..have a great monday one and all

all by myself

Mum and Dad left for the coast today for 3 months of whitebaiting and raining lol…so its back to just me and the kids again and its way to quiet around here. in case i didnt mention it before my parents live with me, when their home that is…they travel quite a bit, have a bach in haast as well as a caravan on some farm down the Lewis pass.

its going to be a bit lonely around here without them around but at least i might find a bit more time to scrapbooking lol.

meantime i still havent got on with the monthly challenge, i still cant find the one photo i need…but then i havent really made a huge effort to look for it either, i have a vague idea which disk its on i am just not sure where that disk is…tomorrow i look….make that whole effort thing…i’ve just been running around like a mad thing this last week…never seemed to stop but now that Jodi is working (he started yesterday at Countdown YAY) and Mum and Dad have gone things should settle down into a nice dull routine…the only things i have to do is take Katie swimming on Tuesday and Thursday…the rest of the week is flexible and all up to me to work around Katies routine which i am getting stricker on with the hope that sometime in the next 3 months she will sleep though the night and i can start weaning her onto a bottle.

well i am off to watch the movie…doubt i will last long…i am sooo tired tonight.